Through a Glass Window (Revised Edition)
LGBTQ
Blackpool
Through A Glass Window
‘STAY AT HOME’ for as long as it takes to defeat the COVID-19 Pandemic … that, surely, is the message. I’ve pulled this piece out, another favourite, for it takes me back to great times in Blackpool, of working hard, of the room where The Four Seasons was penned over ten months. That gorgeous image captures the very essence of life at that time …
‘STAY AT HOME’ for as long as it takes to defeat the COVID-19 Pandemic.
In April, I dedicated this poem afresh to the millions, worldwide, our health workers, doctors, nurses and support, our support and infrastructure services, and doing all we can to encourage industry to move from domestic production to front-line production of the personal protection equipment and ventilators and surgical equipment we need to fight this pandemic and to succeed in the testing initiatives that will give us the upper hand.
In a way, that still stands. I remain sanguine.
Now, though, I’m inclined to say in British vernacular, get on with it, stop belly-aching, and give a wide berth to journalism. Give them five minutes a day, maximum. Then get on with running your lives and living in this present age. And stop belly-aching about the infringement of your civil rights because your Christmas plans have been disrupted. 99.99 per cent of you, if seated in Downing Street or in the Reichstag would shit a brick if you had to try and weigh up everything being presented to you. I damned well know I would!
*
As we grip the virulent new strain of Covid, let us not be too hard upon central government. We look around the world and we see leaders who have cocked a snoop at covid and turned a bare bottom in defiance. We look around the world and we also see good governance, reacting swiftly to stem the effect of Covid’s new strain.
We see in Germany, Chancellor Merkel taking very tough measures earlier in the week, being rebuked for it - Ich will mein Weihnachten, kommt was auch immer! - I want my Christmas, come what may!
Then the British prime minister finds that he too must now change direction. He is right to do so. The German chancellor is right to do so.
The one group of people I tire of is, alas, journalists.
We are damned if we do, we are damned if we don’t!
I am a passionate advocate of the free press. But in this age of total irreverence, it matters not the status of premiers, secretaries of state, chancellors, and presidents - all, without exception, are the meat and gruell of the journalist. Good journalism acts as a check and balance. Whining journalism, as we have here in Britain, plays to the uninformed, stokes the fires of discontent, and argues they do so in the name and furtherance of true democracy. In so doing, they take the very ground from underneath people’s feet.
*
He sat silently, pondering events … do I measure up to the greatest generation?
The faintest movement of air caught the lace … have no fear … you do indeed measure up, all of you, your generation is as great as they were … so be strong, be valiant, be humble, be kind … you will see this through … just as they did … and equipped with an understanding of our responsibility to each other, and to this planet that even a month ago could not have been comprehended.
A great peace came over him, gazing as he did far into the future, and a calm that touched every sinew within him
Written in 2011 and reminded upon seeing this stunning image once again this morning, Sunday December 20, 2020 as we deal with the Pandemic.
I
The moon is high in the sky
A very icy night.
There will be fog in the morning
and the bells will sound across
the Mersey;
the heartbeat of the house
captured by the perfect rhythm
of the clock in the lounge.
Be positive
Fight all negativity
even though the sense of
evil,
the darkness pervading
and envelops,
threatening to stifle life itself.
The will to stand firm.
The quivering knee.
The gut-wrenched stomach
of another panic attack
or is it epilepsy?
The stench of redundancy
and an even greater stench,
the dirty breath
and sweaty odour
of an old man way past his prime
without a necktie;
a shrivelled up newspaper tycoon lookalike;
rude, abusive
self-important, intrusive
full of guile and cunning
heaped in lies and meaningless sentiments,
capable of arguing black is white
and east is west
a disreputable trumped-up individual
despised by all
but denuded that he is ‘Mister Popularity’
loved by all!
II
So why go on?
Who can one turn to?
Why is it always an empty bed?
Where are family?
Where are friends?
Whatever went wrong?
How on earth did I make
so many mistakes?
III
Can’t sleep
Can't rest
Can't see a future
Don't want to continue.
I'm tired
I ‘want out’.
There’s nothing I can
give back.
There’s no worth in me.
IV
Yet with the rhythmic beat
I look across to Eyford Lodge,
Vanessa two generations on
where once stood Isabel Alice
70 years before
at her Portrait
The Lady in the Drawing Room
and seen now in Carol.
The Lodge still stands,
the backdrop of forest
long gone, only existing now in
sepia yester-year,
Cotswold Stone,
Very posh.
Surviving hundreds of years,
yet we, by chance,
exceeding a mere three score
years and ten or twenty more
maximo!
V
Everything is in place
Part of me wants to believe
I will succeed;
that this present emptiness
is actually not empty at all
but a vessel into which
is poured yet more of
life’s experiences, lessons
and preparations to pass on
to others
down the line
and either side of me.
VI
Behind the curtain, drawn,
shutting out the cold night air
I know the Lighthouse stands
and with it sweet and pleasant
memories both there
and here.
Earnest conversations,
uplifting thoughts,
ambitions,
animated discussions on
architecture, the arts, history and accountancy
and a family’s massive contribution
to this great City.
If only…
VII
My eyes are heavy
That is good
for now, at last,
I’ll sleep
whereas before my head
was occupied with a thousand
thoughts of how to attain
eternal sleep . . .
but that quiet voice whispers
out of the dimly lit corner
of the room.
No. Let it go. Dismiss such thoughts
Just take one day at a time
for as Someone aeons past
described it thus,
Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof[i]
VIII
So let us end with thoughts of
a friend’s encouraging letter
yesterday when least expected.
Keep focused.
Do not panic.
Overcome the twilight panic attacks.
Sit straight.
Refuse to shake.
And when the moment has passed
and equilibrium briefly restored,
take the momentary respite
to move to another room.
Walk around. . .
make a drink.
Sit down.
Occupy the mind with
positive thoughts
books to read
paintings to admire
family portraits to inspire
and take it to the
lowest common denominator
of all. . .
That there is always, always,
always someone
far worse off
and who would give all to
be here in this room now
IX
And then maintain your faith.
Concentrate on priorities,
Don't allow yourself to drift
and even if, even now, you
are still bereft
pick up the phone
and make a call.
Just talk and touch again
the outside world;
then larynx restored
retire again to bed
and sleep in peace
and victory;
that you have defied
the darkest powers
and ventured forth
from the innermost
recesses of your mind.
X
In the morning arise.
Break Fast!
And then quickly
into town
be amongst the people.
And if perchance there is
time
and if the fog has lifted
take the Mersey Ferry
to Birkenhead
and have a well earned
mug of tea and hot sandwich
or Danish!
There! You see?
You have shaken off
the cloak of defeat!
You have booted into touch
that wily old devil.
Walk tall again.
Take in the Sea Air.
Feel the delight of Ireland
on your face
and the warmth and charisma
of her people.
Pass the time of day
with the guys and girls on board
and take the time to thank
them for making your crossing
safe.
Appreciate their hard and
unrelenting work.
XI
Any negative thoughts?
Then take tuppence
And throw them in the Mersey. . .
END
Liverpool
20 January 2011
Ian Bradley Marshall
Afterword
Written in the early hours
as the fog closed in
and
remained for two days
along the Sound
from the Lighthouse
at Fort Perch
to way past
Pier Head
Deepest, darkest Winter grips here
but now at last
there is again the faint outline
of New Brighton
and the Wirral beyond
(i) Matthew 6:34 King James Version
13 January 2023
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© 2023 Ian Bradley Marshall
First written on 20 January 2011, in the early hours
Ken Webb is a writer and proofreader. His website, kennwebb.com, showcases his work as a writer, blogger and podcaster, resting on his successive careers as a police officer, progressing to a junior lawyer in succession and trusts as a Fellow of the Institute of Legal Executives, a retired officer with the Royal Air Force Volunteer Reserve, and latterly, for three years, the owner and editor of two lifestyle magazines in Liverpool.
He also just handed over a successful two year chairmanship in Gloucestershire with Cheltenham Regency Probus.
Pandemic aside, he spends his time equally between his city, Liverpool, and the county of his birth, Gloucestershire.
In this fast-paced present age, proof-reading is essential. And this skill also occasionally leads to copy-editing writers’ manuscripts for submission to publishers and also student and post graduate dissertations.